Tuesday, February 05, 2013

The Eeyore Diaries!

I have awesome blog readers. (Well, no, I guess the word would be FRIENDS, since I haven't written anything lately, right?) In the past few weeks, I've gotten quite a few e-mails from people, asking me if I was all right. Some folks had been imagining some pretty dire stuff, so I guess I'll catch everyone up. WARNING: This is why I hadn't been blogging - because everything I wrote made me sound like Eeyore and it's been one stupid, annoying, or horrible thing after another around here. But here we go.

My brother died in October. I think I mentioned that. While I was in the middle of drug-resistant pneumonia.

Sekhmet passed away at the end of November. I think the suffering was minimal; cats usually hide when they're in pain and my evil fucker was plopped on my lap, purring, 'til the end. I'm reasonably sure she booby-trapped the house with cat toys as a reminder, because I'm still finding - and sniffling - over them. When we buried her in the back yard, the Goob waited about an hour and then asked when we dig her up again.

Yeah, it's still my house, after all.

We all had influenza for Christmas. I don't remember Christmas dinner - I made it - but I'm told it was good. I have a vague recollection of drinking too much wine, which, oh yeah, THAT was my best idea ever.

After the influenza, the Goober got pneumonia. Her turn? Anyway, that was mid-January and while the pneumonia's technically gone, she was just at the doctor again because she's still coughing up her toenails. Doc and I think it's inflamed lung tissue and cold, dry air.

I've been dealing with wicked nasty migraines since autumn, really, but the weather in January and February, with thirty degree temperature differences shifting around wildly, really laid me out.

But there's sort of good news. At the end of November, I saw the writing on the wall, the holiday looming, and went to the doctor. We doubled my anti-depressants. I was taking them for pain control. Now I'm also taking them for actual mood like they're meant to be. So that's helped keep me out of the Pit of Despair as I sarcastically call it in my head. (Because you gotta be rude to your brain when it's fucking up.) It's also increased my ability to concentrate, back to something sort of like normal. Which means I've put my head down and made stuff.

Pictures to come, but I've cranked out quite a lot, both knitting and spinning, in the past six months or so. Some of it got ripped right back out again because knitting and drugs and 103 degree fevers? Don't go so well together. And the other night I spun while on lots of migraine meds and it looked like one of those experiments where they feed spiders drugs and see what happens.

So that's about it. Four months in a couple hundred words. (Oh, I've slept a lot, too. Shocked?) But there have been no hospital stays, no ER visits, and nothing really too terribly serious in terms of health. We're muddling on through and even managing to be happy, most days (don't remind the Goober about the groundhog puppet and the doctor's visit, though).

Thanks, everyone, for being awesome.

36 comments:

Earth Angel said...

Wow I'm so glad to hear you're still OK(ish)!

Really sorry to hear about your crappy quarter year and a big hug about Sekhmet. I hope you feel better really soon!

Eva

Janis said...

I'm glad to hear that, although things haven't been great for you, that you're muddling through, and that nothing horrifically terrible happened. I'm sorry to hear things have been so terrible for you, and I hope they get better soon!

Would taking some vitamin D supplements help the depression? It's supposed to, and it might be easier on you than meds.

Rete said...

I am so sorry to hear about Sekhmet - I really enjoyed reading about his shenanigans.

I hope you all get well soon! Flu was a bitch this year for sure.

Krysta said...

I'm glad that you're (relatively) alright, but so sorry at what life's been throwing your way. *hugs!* Hope you and the Goober feel better soon!

Emily said...

Yay! You're back! Thank God for antibiotics. And for antidepressants. Hard on your body they may be, but as one who inherited depression, I don't care. Life is manageable now. (Not necessarily rosy, but I can deal.)

News on the Goob's adventures in school?

luneray said...

welcome back!

Melodye said...

Welcome back! I'll admit to Rav stalking you to check on you an the Goob. Glad to see you're coping.

Rose Red said...

I was just thinking the other day there hadn't been a post from you for ages. Sorry you've been having such a crappy time of it, and especially sorry about Sekhmet.

Nicole T said...

And then you have people who are too shy to e-mail you but have been checking this space for months, hoping you've updated. I'm glad you have. I really hope things get better with you, and hope to hear from you soon.

Deb said...

If you can't complain to your friends, who can you talk to?

I'm glad things are looking up a little.

Hope you all are feeling a little better.

kayT said...

Welcome back.
And what Nicole T said.

Olivia said...

Glad to see you're back! Sekhmet will be sadly missed. Hope everyone continues to feel better from here.

Anonymous said...

Welcome back!

Julia

NeedleTart said...

So glad to know you're back. Personally I call it the "slough of despair". Good suggestion on the Vit D. I was in the slough and someone said that I hit the perfect storm of depression. Vitamin D too low, Thyroid screwed up, menopause, and let's not mention "the wedding". Just keep taking it one day at a time and know we're pulling for you.

nanacindynz said...

I was visiting today to send you a message; I had put it off because I didn't want to hassle you. Thank goodness we've heard from you, and hope you are feeling more well these days!

Olivia Paige said...

What an awesome birthday present. I've been so worried about you and Sekhmet and I'm glad to know that you're doing alright, if not well.

Alacaeriel said...

Thank goodness you're okay. Sounds like a miserable few months to be sure, but glad to hear you are improving

=Tamar said...

I'm another of the shy ones. I'm glad you're back, and sorry about the troubles you've had.

Mary said...

Glad you're back. :)

Ashley said...

So glad to hear that you're all okay. Kinda sorta. Hopefully everything will get better from here, especially with less sickness D:

Sharon said...

Thanks for posting. We've all missed you and pics of the Goob. Sekhmet had a good life with you - I have several critters over the Rainbow Bridge and it's never easy, but he had it made!

Knittynancy in Florida said...

So glad you're back! Also very sorry about your brother, Sekmet, pneumonia and everything else you've been dealing with. Happy that some things are getting better, and am looking forward to pics and updates about the Goob and school!

MLJ1954 said...

I have been stalking your blog. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Anita said...

I too am really glad that you are all OK. Lovely to see a post here.

Adrienne said...

I am glad you are posting, whether you think you sound like Eeyore, or not. I think you are one of those tell it like it is folks, and, to me, never across as Eeyore.

I am so sorry about your brother and your fur kid. Those are hard to take so close together.

As for the furless kitten, she will recover from hacking up a lung, and her energy, when it returns full force, may make you miss her having pneumonia.

As for the rest, time will soften the feelings, but there is nothing wrong with better living through chemistry, whether it is for your messed up hand, or your moods. I understand not wanting to that, but living your best life is the best choice. You need to control how the best life for you is, and make those choices for yourself. You are an intelligent person, and know yourself. Make the best, informed decision for you, and screw anyone else.

Amy Lane said...

SO glad you're back in the saddle again-- and I want you all to be healthy, my darling. YOu can't take over the world if you're not.

The Slop Queen said...

So glad you're still with us. Sorry beyond words about your brother and Sekhmet.

Take care and feel better. We'll wait.

Dylan said...

Really happy to see you blogging again. Glad to hear you are still alive and knitting on.

Barbara said...

THERE you are. I thought you'd dropped off the planet... I suppose you kind of did. what Nicole said too.

Glad to hear all are still fighting the good fight. Sorry about Sekhmet. Hugs to you, the Husbeast, and most of all the Goob. I've missed you all.

PinkSkatingGirl said...

I am glad to know you are back. Wow, you are due for some smooth sailing for the next, oh, 42 years.

Catie said...

I've been meaning to comment or email or something - I've missed hearing your take on life and knitting and Vogue. I hope life treats you gently for the next little bit.

KristieB said...

So glad to see you are up to blogging a bit. Much love and light sent your way. Glad to hear that you are coping, and what a poop storm you are coping through. So sorry for the dual loss of your brother and your beloved Sekmet. Just think of her hidden toys as her ways of making you holler, "Sekmet! You fucker!"

Hannah said...

So glad to see you're back to blogging! :-) I totally understand about the cat toys - lost my cat last June, and just yesterday found not only a bunch of fur under the couch, but a jingly ball. Still makes me tear up over six months later. Here's to hoping the next little while goes smooth as you all get healthy!

Candied Fabrics said...

How nice to see 3 posts from you in my reader! It sounds like you've turned the corner on an absolutely horrid end to 2012.

Anonymous said...

Ditto what Nicole t said.

You were missed.

Pam

historicstitcher said...

I miss you when you're gone. I haven't exactly been posting even remotely regularly, unless you count annual check-ins.

So sorry to hear about Sekhmet -it's never easy to lose a friend.